A Day in the Life: Eye of the Tiger // 02.21.08 Update
February 21, 2008 | Filed Under A Day in the Life | Leave a Comment
i’ve said this many times before, both to close friends goin thru rough patches as well as to myself to push thru tough stretches, but: 1) nothing worthwhile ever comes without hard work. 2) if you want something bad enough, nothing could ever stop you. 3) the truest test of character is how someone responds to difficult situations and challenges. and 4) life comes easy when you make your own luck, and i ****ing love challenges.
nothing in particular brings me to say all this, as everything in my life has been moving steadily forward since the new year began. that being said, the next few weeks will be some of the busiest weeks of my life so far, with an entire pile of key decisions waiting to be made on my part. a lot of the details i won’t get into, but basically 3-4 months of planning is being put into play right about now and i have a lot of work to do to fulfill the expectations i set out of myself this year. put it this way – Kayce is THE team for 2008.
one thing i will go into right now is how i feel about relationships & friendships at the moment. i’ve been absolutely blessed in my life, having met just the right collective of unique individuals who’ve shaped me into the person i am today. i’ve had an amazing myriad of experiences over the course of my life to date, not a lot of which i truly regret.
that being said, i still look back at these experiences constantly, not necessarily to dwell on the negatives or to bask in better days gone by, but simply to learn and re-learn different levels of life lessons i’ve picked up. i love growing as a person, a note perhaps reflected by my ever-growing appreciation for various genres of music.
interestingly, one of the more recent revelations i’ve had is the fact that i’ve been absolutely spoiled in terms of love & friendship. i’ve had the most amazing friends at my side, and i was one of those rare, romantic cases where my first serious relationship came out of a Hollywood movie. i met my best friend at the tender age of 10 when she first moved to Canada by buying her an ice-cream cone randomly one lunch-time, as she hadn’t made any friends yet.
little did i know that that little girl’s smile would grow to be the source of my greatest of inspirations, and that she would become my first love some years later. since then, she’s become my best friend, and i’ve had the opportunity to get to know several other special individuals whose warmth, compassion & understanding have been the key to everything i now believe in – a seeming overstatement that in reality is the epitome of the opposite.
with all this in mind, i realize that i have a unique opportunity to make the most of my life in inspiring and touching a new generation of hearts, minds and souls – simply by doing what i love. i have already been fortunate enough to have had the most beautiful of girls, both inside and out, give me everything i could ever ask for in life. and now, at age 21, i don’t need another relationship, or another girl to complete me the way my heart aches in shameless desire for.
truth be told, part of me longs to have someone to hold and love and cherish. again. but this isn’t the time for that, and i will only look within – the eye of the tiger – to continue moving forward with the vision & vigilance i need in order to leave my mark on the world.
a bold statement, you think to yourself – why did he write all this now? the light shines down the path to continued self-discovery only at 3am? well, this is what comes with the territory of being me – my passion inspires me – and regardless of whether i make the most rational of choices at times, my heart drives me to do what feels right. and this, a rare moment of self-indulgent reflection sprinkled into one of the most hectic periods of my life, feels just right.
and now, after i respond to about 3 dozen emails, i’m off to bed for 4 hours before i get up for my 2nd of 3 nine-to-five workdays at a product distribution company uptown. what am i doing there aside from making (good) money? you’ll find out soon enough.. til then, live the life you love and love the life you live.
3:26am, a day in the life.
Stars – “The Calendar Girl” Lyrics
February 20, 2008 | Filed Under Favourite Songs | Leave a Comment
If I am lost for a day; try to find me
But if I don’t come back, then I won’t look behind me
All of the things that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day
December is darkest and June is the light but this empty bedroom won’t make anything right
While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home
Who waits up for me all through the night
Calendar girl who’s in love with the world Stay alive
Calendar Girl who’s in love with the world Stay alive
I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there,please don’t let me die
But I can’t live forever,I can’t always be
One day I’ll be sand on a beach by a sea
The pages keep turning, I’ll mark off each day with a cross
And I’ll laugh about all that we’ve lost
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world
Stay Alive
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive
January, February, March, April, May I’m alive
June, July, August, September,October I’m alive
November, December, you all through the winter, I’m alive
I’m alive
i love this song.. seems like a strange song for me to like, but def fits the moment.. on that note, a big thank you goes out to a special someone reading this who is always there to be everything for me when i need her to be.
India.Arie – “The Heart of the Matter” Lyrics
February 7, 2008 | Filed Under Favourite Songs | Leave a Comment
i love her voice, and i love this song (originally by Don Henley).. brings back memories from a period of time a long while ago when i had it stuck on repeat, but it came on today in my playlist and got me thinkin again.. a note of clarification though, coz there’ve been misinterpretations in the past – but when i post lyrics of a song i like, its usually because i like the lyrics or the song in general, not coz they specifically relate to me and my personal life =)
I got the call today, I didn’t wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin’ on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And all the struggles we went through
How I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love’s open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?
I’ve been learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I’m learning them again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore
These times are so uncertain
There’s a yearning undefined
And people filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness
They’re the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work they put between us,
You know it doesn’t keep us warm
I’ve been trying to live without you now
But I miss you, baby
The more I know, the less I understand
And all the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my heart is so shattered
But I think it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore
All the people in your life who’ve come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin’ that anger, it’ll eat you up inside
I wanna be happily everafter
And my heart is so shattered
But I know it’s about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don’t love me anymore
I’ve been tryin’ to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I’m thinkin’ about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if you don’t love me anymore
Even if you don’t love me anymore